Defeats against Accrington Stanley are always hard to take.
But this loss was that much harder to stomach given the circumstances surrounding it on Saturday.
There is no way we deserved to lose that game but as has happened on more occasions than I’d like to remember against that lot we came up short.
At the very least we should have shut up shop in the dying moments and taken a point.
But for obvious reasons we were absolutely desperate to win the game and that maybe cost us a share of the spoils.
It’s impossible for me to ignore the penalty incident.
Everybody is going to have their own opinion about what happened but I’m honest enough that if I felt I had taken their played down I’d hold my hands up and admit fault.
But as everyone who has since messaged me after seeing the TV replays said, I clearly got the ball.
I have come and spread myself in front of him which actually made him jump out of the way and have clearly taken the ball with both hands.
But unfortunately the referee doesn’t have the benefit of TV replays and has to make his decision on the spot.
Once Big Jack (Sampson) scored the equaliser we had Accy on the ropes for a good 15 to 20 minutes and really should have pressed home our advantage.
But when you don’t score when you’re on top in a game you are often left paying the penalty for it and that was certainly the case.
The FA Cup draw has thrown up a very tough tie for us.
We know Southend inside out just as they know us.
We have definitely had the better of them over the years but we know we are in for a real battle if we are to progress to the next round.